The header image of the “golden bible” above was selected because while ministering in a church in Hope Arkansas USA Helen received a prophecy that she was to write a book. The vision which accompanied this prophesy described Helen’s book as being “golden” in color. Since Helen’s story was to also incorporate biblical principles therefore the image of the golden bible above seemed appropriate to illustrate Helen’s Story on this web-page.

The title is “Helen’s Levite Woman’s Story” because it describes Helen who was born as a Levite woman created to be a helpmeet to a Levite man. We coined the phrase “Levite Woman” to describe those women who were born with the spiritual resources to be a helpmeet to a New Testament Fivefold Ministry Levite man.

See the link “Levite Woman” for more details.

The story of my life begins when I met the man I was to marry. It was at this point that my life was transformed from being a lonely and miserable single girl to a woman of purpose and destiny.

We first met on a Sunday afternoon when Kenneth arrived to preach at my fellowship (upon my invitation). I will never forget the moment we first met when I was standing in the hallway just five minutes before his scheduled time to preach. I saw a man approaching and as I approached him, I asked, “Kenneth?”

There is a pop-song that best describes that moment when we first laid eyes upon one another which was a time I shall never forget! The lyrics sang in my heart “The first time ever I saw your face…the sun and the moon and stars…!” I could only describe him as having some sort of radiance about him and a kind of beauty of holiness about him that made him look somehow “immaculate” in my eyes! Wow! How the sparks were flying between us at first sight! I noticed immediately that his ears were blushing and my heart started pounding hard at this sign that he also likes me and the attraction between us was mutual!

As Kenneth was preaching to my congregation, I was going down my list and saw that he had every detail of my specific prayer that I had made to God for a mate. Kenneth had three sermons planned but he could not keep his eyes off of me while preaching and he decided to cut it short with only one sermon instead and immediately invited me out to dinner afterward.

At the restaurant we became the longest-seated customers in the place as we shared for hours together. We were so amazed that we knew so many of the same people and had the same beliefs and ideas and faith which were held in mutual understanding between us. It was as if we knew each other all of our lives and were truly made for each other!

See the link “Specific Prayer For Mate” for more details.

Kenneth was supposed to meet another Korean pastor for his next preaching schedule but he was terribly late because the time seemed to slip away as we shared and shared together on our first date. On the way to the next schedule Kenneth proposed to me in the taxi right away because he did not want to lose me to another guy by being passive after he had waited all of his life to meet a girl like me! He did not know that this also was an answer to my specific prayer to God for a mate that God would cause him to propose right away! I had been single long enough and I did not want to endure a long courtship but wanted to begin our happy life together! It did not take even a second for me to immediately accept his proposal and my heart was singing for joy and it was the best moment of my entire life because his proposal was heavenly music to my ears!

This answer to my prayer for a mate came in 1996 when I first met Kenneth and the following year in March 1997, we were married at the U.S. Embassy in Seoul (dressed casual in blue jeans). We were actually happy to skip the typical wedding ceremony and Kenneth was surprised that I had the same feelings about it as he also did. We ended up having our honeymoon at Prayer Mountain (even if that was not really suitable for a newly married couple). We were just happy to be with each other and anywhere was “good” as long as we were together.

Dramatic Answers to Prayer can be a “Harbinger” of Storms Ahead

It should be noted however that when God moves in a dramatic manner like this then often this means that there are big storms coming ahead. It was the memory of the supernatural working of God putting us together that held us like an anchor during the troubled times ahead.

Prophecy Received

The prophecy about writing a book was received early marriage in the midst of severe marital storms and also, I could hardly write (since English is not my first language) and was never a detailed person. I thought God must have chosen the wrong one because of my lack of qualifications for writing but God is God. One thing for sure I need to obey Him and with all willingness. Throughout out my book, I decided to put links to related prayer journals and dreams which God provided for instruction during my life’s journey. Hopefully these will be of benefit and help to others who may have similar struggles to overcome.

Isaiah 1:19-20 (NKJV)

¹⁹ If you are willing and obedient, You shall eat the good of the land;

²⁰ But if you refuse and rebel, You shall be devoured by the sword”; For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.

This is my obedience to the Lord to write this book for helping women how to be a helpmeet to their man in marriage and for providing some direction for home life. This book is designed to inspire women that they might obey and preform the role of wife which God has ordained for them during their life on earth and do this as unto the Lord.

Have you ever thought about why are you here on earth for……? It is to worship because every human being is created to worship God. This can provide all humanity with eternal purpose on this earth as they seek to bring glory to God in whatever walk of life they are found in.

Levite Women

The calling of Levite women is to marry a Levite man and to be a helpmeet for them to fulfill their calling in life. They are to allow their men to accomplish God’s will and purpose as servants of God.

See the link “Levite Women” for more details.

Just come hungry!

Isaiah 55:1 (NLT2)

¹ “Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink— even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk— it’s all free!

You do not have to waste many decades of struggle to follow in the footsteps of those who went before you in the narrow and difficult path of crucifixion of sin-nature (also called the self-nature) and to follow the path of Christ! What I have learned and lived by for 23-years (1997-2020 so far) concerning biblical marriage adjustment would be yours to comply with and to teach other women like what I am doing now.

Helen’s Journey

Part 1

In the end of year 1982 just before Christmas I arrived in London, England, for further education and for the purpose of meeting my future spouse. Ever since my childhood I had some kind of knowing within the inside of me that someday I would marry a foreigner. I went to Language School for a while and then attended Hotel Management College in London. I thought Hotel Management might open the door for me to meet foreigners and possibly my future husband.

At this point I was a born-again believer and baptized in the Holy Spirit (spoke in tongues). Dr. David Cho was my pastor in Seoul but at the time I was not yet consecrated to the Lord so I was worldly and not fully committed to the Lord. I was living my own life and looking for financial security. At this time, I was involved in an adulterous relationship with a rich man, who supported me financially, and I had been convicted of this sin all along.

In the course of time in London, I was invited by an English friend named Emma to attend an Anglican Church service one evening. This was a Spirit-Filled church and the power of God moved within that place. We sat down before the service began and suddenly the conviction of the Holy Spirit came powerfully upon me. I was weeping profusely and did not come to my senses again until after the church service was over and only a few people were left in the place and Emma was waiting patiently to take me home. I must have been under the conviction of the Holy Spirit because I found myself sitting in the middle of many used tissues and handkerchiefs all around me. I knew in my heart that had been given a last chance to return to the Lord because my baby-grace time period had ended. I had a strong impression that had to make a decision for returning to the Lord before leaving the church! I had to choose either for God or against God and I made the right choice that I would follow the Lord whole-heartedly from that point forward because I knew this was the last call for me!

Upon coming home, I entered into a fast that lasted for five days. I was fasting for God’s grace to put an end to my old sinful lifestyle but this was not going to be easy because this is where I found my financial security. I was fearful to step out in faith and follow Jesus and to begin my struggle in finding a new life of consecration.

I totally broke off my relationship with the rich man and dedicated my life to the Lord. I left my luxury apartment in London and went out by faith. This resulted in me having to pay a great price with insecurity and lack of finances and wandering from one poor lodging to the next. But I was determined I would not go back on the Lord and even threw away all of the contact information of the rich man so that I would not be tempted to return again during the hard times to come.

One time while visiting a Christian community outside of London, and received the 1^st prophecy concerning my fearful struggle and first steps of following Jesus in complete devotion. It was a big encouragement because I had left all of the comforts that wealth could buy and was now in a destitute situation. I took comfort in knowing that the Lord knew of my situation and spoke words of encouragement for me through this personal prophecy.

After finishing Hotel Management School, I then attended Hampstead Bible School in London (where the director permitted me to attend even without the needed tuition payment). Here I received a second prophecy which served to encourage me during my time of testing. Over the course of the past years I had drifted away from God by my poor decisions and now I was suddenly faced with paying a great price to come back to the Lord. Encouraged I continued in my pursuit of God even when things looked bleak for me financially.

In the year 1988 I returned to Korea and the Lord spoke to me that I should wait in Korea because God would bring my man to me there. My steps were ordered by the Lord and I met the man of my dreams in Seoul in 1996.

Grace period for the babyhood

There is a grace period for a new believer and it is like the honeymoon time in the Lord which is called “First Love” and during this season of a believer’s life God will typically bless them with answered prayers and evidence of his working in their lives in order to show himself real to them.

But when the babyhood stage is over it is then that God will require more out of a believer and they will no longer be carried around and pampered like a baby.

When the babyhood stage is completed then the Holy Spirit will start convicting the believer idols of their hearts starting with the biggest idols first.

Often mature believers will play many tricks and involve themselves in self-deception trying to keep or retain an idol in their hearts. But this only leads to a hardened heart if they refuse to repent and eventually this will land them in hell if they steadfastly refuse to repent and persist in serving their idol. The best thing for a believer to do is simply repent and surrender their idol to the Lord and be honest about it and then go on.

See the link “Idols of the Heart” for more details.

If a believer persists in retaining their idols even after the Holy Spirit has convicted them then they will eventually become hardened in heart. When willful disobedience is present in their life they will go dormant spiritually until such time that they repent of and forsake that sin.

If the Spirit of God departs from them then they will become like King Saul who was cut off from God by his disobedience and God no longer spoke to Saul by any means whatsoever. This same thing can happen to a believer who had resisted the Holy Spirit for a long time until the Spirit of God forsakes them due to their steadfast and stubborn rebellion.

Genesis 6:3 (NKJV)

³ And the LORD said, “My Spirit shall not strive with man forever…………………

God will not deal with an unrepentant believer forever. One day there will be no more conviction and at their time repentance will no longer be available. For everything there is a time and a season. If an unrepentant believer experiences the absence of the Holy Spirit then this means that they have crossed the perdition line. At such time they will be rejected by God forever. There are some who have misinterpreted this as having “peace” after the Holy Spirit stops convicting them but they are sadly mistaken. This is not a means of making peace with God but instead it is the absence of the conviction of the Holy Spirit over prolonged unrepentant sin so such a person has sealed themselves up for hell by their stubborn refusal to repent. Sometimes such a refusal to repent can extend for decades of having the Holy Spirit convict them of a specific sin.

Genesis 6:3 (NLT2)

³ Then the LORD said, “My Spirit will not put up with humans for such a long time, …

Again, it should be noted that the Spirit of God will not put up with or tolerate humans who persist for long periods of time in willful rebellion. It does not make sense that someone living in continual rebellion against God for decades would suddenly make peace with the Lord. The fact that they no longer have any conviction for sin is evidence that the Spirit of God has abandoned them.

I lived a wayward lifestyle for many years but I was confronted by the Holy Spirit at the Anglican Church in London and I knew it was my last chance and I would be abandoned to hell if I did not take this chance given to me. I determined right then and there to redeem myself from hell and stop playing games or putting repentance off until later. I was honest with myself knowing that I had continual conviction for living in sin for a long time and I was forced to make a decision on that night God when confronted me. I thank God I chose the Lord and turned from sin and saved myself from damnation!

But some believers are not honest with themselves and play many “tricks” trying to avoid repentance. Some have switched off their mind and attempted to ignore or deny the conviction of the Holy Spirit for a long period of time. But doing this causes them to harden their hearts and eventually they will cross the perdition line and be unable to repent anymore. So, these people are hell-bound for sure because without the Holy Spirit it is impossible for them to repent. Such people have hardened their hearts and have a conscience that has been seared by a hot iron.

1 Timothy 4:2 (NIV)

² ……… hypocritical liars, whose consciences have been seared as with a hot iron.

Having their conscience seared by a hot iron means that they have no more feeling of guilt and conviction for sin has ceased. Such people will typically continue to play religious games but it is all an empty routine because the Spirit of God is no longer with them. They can go through all of the outward motions of going to church or preforming religious activity but it is all for nothing when they are already sealed up for hell.

Romans 6:23 (NKJV)

²³ For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Sin always brings death and sends unrepentant sinners to hell. When God is dealing with a believer about sin, God will also provide the anointing and grace to overcome that sin. When the grace of God is present then the believer should not despise that grace by refusing to repent when they have the opportunity to do so. They are not to miss the right time to make their hearts right with God during the time when the Spirit of God is still convicting them of sin.

1 Corinthians 10:14 (NASB)

¹⁴ Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry.

The believer is to flee away from all idolatry including the idolatry of the heart.

Again, see the link “Idols of the Heart” for more details.

If a believer becomes stubborn and persists in their rebellion and they fail to surrender to God then their spiritual growth will become stagnant and their heart will become increasingly hard with each passing day.

Matthew 7:18-20 (NIV)

¹⁸ A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit.

²⁰ Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

There are even some children of preachers who were raised in the church and speak Christian lingo and words but in fact they are not saved. They instead have a form of “mental assent” but have not experienced spiritual regeneration within. There are even some preachers who are not saved and only engage in dead human-made religion.

But Jesus said that a tree can be identified by its fruit. A bad tree cannot produce good fruit. Unfortunately, there are many fake churches run by fake preachers and they cannot impart anything of the life of God to anyone. Such will only reproduce after their own kind creating more unregenerate fake Christians

See the link “Religious Vultures” for more details.

Hosea 4:6 (NIV)

⁶ my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge. “Because you have rejected knowledge, ….

Concerning eternity, it is important that people study the bible diligently before it is too late. The most important thing is for them to know if they are really saved (born-again or spiritually regenerated) because there are many people who engage only in “mental assent” and have not left the mental realm and have not experienced true salvation.

What is happening to me?

One day at the bible school there was a visiting preacher and as I sat on the front row I perceived that this man was interested in me. It was confirmed when he made several attempts to have me stand up and give my name and state if I was married or not. But I did not respond and under my breath I said to myself I would never marry someone who my heart has no attraction for. I would rather stay single than to marry a man whom my heart does not follow after.

But as soon as I said this in my heart then suddenly, I started sobbing convulsively and I had to get up and leave the room trying to get control of myself. I was weeping hard as if I lost a loved one! It was a very strange thing that I could not stop crying and in my own mind I was wondering what was happening to me. This thing had nothing to do with my emotions whatsoever because there was nothing externally that could have triggered such strong weeping.

That experienced puzzled me for a long time until I married the man whom my heart did go after. When I shared my experience with Kenneth in 2002, he understood immediately because he had experienced the same thing when he was in America. So, Kenneth went to the Lord as asked the Lord about this experience about how both of us in different countries suddenly started weeping convulsively for no apparent reason! Below is a prayer journal written by Kenneth after he asked the Lord about this situation.

See the link “Weeping in the Spirit” for more details.

Being Specific in Asking God for a mate

The reason that unmarried women must ask for a mate in “specific” manner is because God will honor their choice and their human freewill. They are going to have to dwell with this man and they will have to choose to serve this man so they must have the right guy for this reason. It is more important for a woman to ask God for a specific mate because she is required to submit to him. A man could for example choose from a number of compatible girls and marriage could work out for him simply because he is the head of the home and the one that he marries is required to submit to him. But for a single lady she needs a specific man that she is compatible with whom she can submit to.

Psalm 37:4-5 (NKJV)

⁴ Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

⁵ Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass.

This scripture speaks of God giving the “desires” of the heart so I believe this can also be applied to the fact that God can place these desires into the heart of the believer. Therefore God-given desires can guide the believer in the path that God has for their lives.

In my case I had some desires for a husband so I decided to make a specific list of these things.

See the link “Cho-Testimony of Specific Prayer” for more details about a specific prayer for a mate.

Helen’s Soul Mate Prayer List

1. Nationality and Occupation:

I wanted to have a Caucasian American traveling preacher.

It took me a while in making this decision to ask for a preacher rather than a businessman because I had been seeking security in life. But I finally chose to have “spiritual fellowship” over financial security so I asked for a preacher instead. I must admit that It took me many years to made the decision to marry a preacher over businessman. The reason, I did not know that I was a Levite girl who is call to marry a Levite man in the first place.

This is an important topic for Levite women because those Levite women who marry laymen for financial security will typically end up without an avenue for ministry. This can ruin their lives when they have burning desire for spiritual things but find no fulfillment in being wives to laymen.

Levite women are endowed with spiritual resources by God for the purpose of being helpmeet to Levite husbands. If they do not marry Levite men, they will forever be without any means of utilizing the spiritual resources that God has given to them. Therefore, Levite women should have Levite husbands and thanks be to God that I made the right choice to choose spiritual fellowship over financial security after all.

Again, see the link “Levite Women” for more details.

2. Biblical Beliefs the same as my own.

This is an important issue because of a woman marries someone who does not hold the same beliefs they will forever be strangers in the same house. They have to be compatible in faith and beliefs because the woman is to be a helpmeet to her husband and adapt herself to him. If he does not believe the same way then how can they walk together in unity if he tears her down or resists the things which she herself embraces? Single ladies must clarify to the Lord that they want to have someone of the same beliefs so that they can have unity in marriage and they can easily submit to their husband and become one together with him. I had negative experiences which grieved me with so called Christians but could not fellowship with them much because of our different beliefs. There are those who will even fight to have the right to be sick and this is in great contrast to those who believe it is God’s will to be healed. There cannot be any fellowship along these lines when someone is militant against something which you yourself embrace. Most certainly no one should marry someone who is drastically different in core beliefs.

I specified to the Lord that I desired a man who was filled with the Holy Spirit baptism with speaks in another tongues and believes in the full-gospel message of healing and prosperity the nine Gifts of the Spirit in manifestation. With such common beliefs then we can flow together in unity over bible truth as a couple. Spiritual compatibility is of vital importance because the woman is to adapt herself to her husband and become one with him. It is vital that the woman ask God for a specific husband so that she is able to adapt herself to him and become “one-person” together with him in marriage.

3. 5’ 11” tall

This may not seem important but being specific like this was great when God provided exactly what I prayed for to the very inch! We would not know if it was God who answered our prayers unless we are specific about our prayer requests. I had read a book that someone saw Jesus in an open vision and estimated that Jesus was about 5-feet and 11-inches tall so I just asked God for a man of this height. But this turned out to be something specific that caused rejoicing in my heart when I heard that Kenneth is exactly 5’11” tall just as I had asked God in my specific request for a mate.

4. Same Age or Younger and Good Looking etc…!

I wanted someone who was attractive in my eyes. I asked God for a man with light brown hair because I thought that blonde would be too much of a contrast with my dark Asian hair. I asked for gray/blue eyes and artistic fingers. I added some things which are too personal to mention.

5. Circumcised man.

I wanted to have this for sanitary reason and how relieving it was to hear that Ken said his parents had him circumcised as an infant.

In fact, God had spoken to me “according to your faith be it unto you” when I was seeking the Lord with fasting and nothing is too difficult for the Lord.

6. No Children

Children are a gift of God and most women should desire to have children. But I happened to have had a bad experience when I once attended Nurse’s Aid Training School and saw a childbirth at the hospital that put fear in me when I saw the doctor cut the birth canal open for delivery. So, that made my prayer I asked for a husband who did not want any children. It was amazing that Kenneth did not want any kids. Normally God would want most couples to have godly offspring’s as a means of procreation. I overcame fear of pregnancy after God gave me the below message.

See the link “Fear of Pregnancy” for more details.

7. No Traditional Wedding.

I did not have any desire for a traditional wedding and thought it was boring and prayed for a husband who was the same as me. Kenneth was amazed that I told him that because he also did not want to have a traditional wedding either. No doubt which we were made for each other.

8. Love life (sexual relations).

Hebrews 13:4 (CJB)

⁴ Marriage is honorable in every respect; and, in particular, sex within marriage is pure. But God will indeed punish fornicators and adulterers.

I asked sincerely in this area that our sexual relations would flow together with pleasure. A married couple has a great capacity to enjoy their sexual union together because everything in the marriage love life is blessed by God. Only sexual relations outside of marriage are cursed by God. All sex within marriage is blessed and holy, the couple can even pray to God for pleasure by faith.

9. A man of faith, a man of prayer who walks in love

Only, this one request was unfulfilled but remains a process where God is working on us. It is simply our part to do and live by not God’s part. I realize later, isn’t it a life time homework for us to becoming one, with character development, refinement following Christ daily.

10. Immediate proposal.

I had been a miserable single girl long enough because of being indecisive between asking for a businessman or a Levite man whom I would marry. So, I did not want to waste any more time for courting, so asking when I met the right one that God would have him propose to me right away. Kenneth surprised himself in proposing to me only four-hours after he met me! God actually moved him to do this as a fulfillment of my specific prayer. It was these specific answers to prayer that confirmed that Kenneth was indeed a tailor-made man created by God just for me!

Just be specific concerning a soulmate; according to your faith be it unto you…!

The devil often tormented my mind that there was no such man could possibly exist that I was praying in vain. But kept encouraging myself that with the Almighty God nothing is impossible and in His foreknowledge He saw me what Helen was going to ask for the mate and so he created that person in the womb according to my specifications! I said to Devil that is not my problem but God’s problem if there was no such man…!!! Just quote some scriptures to myself.

Revelation 1:8 (NIV)

⁸ “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.”

Revelation 1:17 (NIV)

¹⁷ When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said: “Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last.

These scriptures above speak of God who is and was and is to come being in the present and past and future as well. God lives in a timeless place and travels back and forth who is the first and the last.

Luke 20:37-38 (NIV)

37 …………. for he calls the Lord ‘the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob.’

38 He is not the God of the dead, but of the living, for to him all are alive.”

God is the God of the living and he is Omniscient having infinite knowledge and, in his foreknowledge, he knew that Helen would ask for her mate and so created Kenneth in advanced for me. So “ha-ha’ on the devil because I received the specific man that I had asked by a specific prayer of faith. While waiting there was doubt in the head naturally and I almost gave up for about 10-years standing in the faith spiritually till Kenneth showed up. What a battle I went through!

According to your Faith be it done unto you

I was when I was still a single woman that I went to Prayer Mountain to fast and pray for a mate. At that time I heard and audible voice saying, “According to your faith be it done unto you!” I actually turned around to see if anyone was present around speaking to me because I heard God’s voice audibly!

I was still immature and a beginner in the faith walk. I got excited saying, “Wow! God is going to bring my man to me so I can marry! I simply thought that God knows who is the right one for me and he would bring the right man to marry. But I did not know how to appropriate the faith-part and as a result wasted many more years waiting in vain while God was waiting on me to make a specific request.

If we do not make a specific request from God then we are depriving God of the opportunity to work in our lives. When God brought Kenneth, He fulfilled all specific details (except No 9) A man of faith, a man of prayer who walks in love. As it turned out these issues (where character development is involved) takes time to change and it was something God was developing in the life of Kenneth but he did not arrive with these things all “complete” as I had expected. But everything else I had on my list was fulfilled in very specific manner just as I had prayed to God to receive. I rejoiced that it was God who did this for me! This brings glory to God when he can answer specific prayers like this. Single ladies have to be specific about their request for a husband and not be afraid to be detailed about their requests.

It is a foolish prayer to assume that God knows who is best for me and will bring the right one…!!! You need to ask in faith because God is a faith God and wants you to be specific about what you want so it will bring glory to His Name.

Again, see the link “Cho-Testimony of Specific Prayer” for more details.

Whenever God answers a specific prayer this shows that he is real and so it also causes rejoicing and thanksgiving in the heart of the recipient. This gratitude’s is like the sweet aroma of a thank offering to God!

The Magic Question!

What kind of a man do you want to marry? You need a specific type of man so that you can freely submit to him and serve him as a helpmeet! This is a question that single girls need to answer frankly. They cannot just marry any type of man but they need a specific man that they can become a helpmeet for and to become one-person together with in unity with that man. He must be compatible naturally and be attractive to them and he must be compatible spiritually so they can walk in unity together with him.

Typically, most churches have not been teaching any good biblical principles concerning this matter of asking God by faith for a spouse. There have been many girls who were mismatched and went shipwreck. This is because of the lazy and ignorant and infant stage of spiritual growth of so many of the carnal churches which are not teaching anything applicable to single ladies. In fact, however heavenly “match-making” is the most important event of a girls entire live (second only to her salvation). If she marries the wrong one it can ruin her life forever!

Hosea 4:6 (NIV)

⁶ my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge.

This scripture says that God’s people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge. This speaks primarily of their lack of knowledge concerning God’s divine protocol and how God does things. God is a God of faith and expects his children to come to him by faith with specific requests enabling him to manifest himself as real by answers to specific prayer.

A believer therefore has to come to God on his terms and approach him according to what God has already said in his word.

Hebrews 4:16 (NIV)

¹⁶ Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

The believer can approach the throne of grace with confidence because of the atoning work of Christ that has made them worthy to do so.

Hebrews 11:6 (NIV)

⁶ And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Without faith it is impossible to please God because those who come to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Single ladies must ask for a specific man in prayer by faith for this reason.

James 4:2 (NASB)

² You do not have because you do not ask.

This scripture says that the believer does not have simply because they do not ask. I wasted decades before I finally got specific in prayer and asked God. My youth was already gone before I got serious about my prayer of faith. There is no need for young ladies to grow old waiting on God when in fact God is waiting on them to become specific in prayer and dare to ask God for a specific mate.

How to Identify You are a Levite Girl?

A Levite woman is one who is endowed with the spiritual resources necessary to become a helpmeet to a Levite man. All women are created by God to be a helpmeet to a man and to become one-person together with their husbands. This is true of a Levite woman the same as it is also true of a laywoman. But the Levite woman must specifically ask God for a Levite husband by faith.

A Levite woman will have a great desire for spiritual things like prayer and study of the word and for doing ministry. These are all signs that she has been born with the spiritual resources that endows her to become a wife of a Levite man.

If a girl is a Levite woman, then she most certainly is called to be a wife of a Levite man and she will find no fulfillment in life unless she can marry a fellow Levite like herself.

A Levite woman will carry some kind of spiritual fervor and have a great interest in spiritual things and loves to pray and is concerned about people finding salvation. When they read the bible and are blessed then this is an asset to inspire their future Levite husbands in the ministry.

A Levite woman will be thinking about attending a bible school instead of a secular course of study for an occupation. If they understand spiritual things and love bible teaching books and materials then they are a Levite woman.

A Levite woman will typically seek to teach bible knowledge to others and help others and pray for them in time of need. They have a burning desire for spiritual things and they must marry a Levite man or else they will have no outlet for these spiritual resources. As a woman they are not called to have their own ministry but they are created as a helpmeet so this means they are called to support their own Levite husband in the ministry.

Five Choices of Husband for the Levite Woman

Ephesians 4:11 (7KB)

¹¹ In giving ministry gifts, the Lord gave some as Apostles, and some as Prophets, and some as Teachers and some as Pastors and some as Evangelists,

There are five ministry gifts:

1. Apostles define and expose disorder and put it back in order using the systematic teaching of God’s word. The fruit of the Apostle is divine order.

2. Prophets define and expose sin and bring a fruit of holiness and fear of the Lord to the church.

3. Teachers have revelation of God’s word and can teach the bible on any subject. The fruit of a Bible Teacher is revelation of God’s word.

4. Pastors provide oversight like a shepherd that cares for a flock of sheep.

5. Evangelists win souls so their gift is for unbelievers outside of the church.

If a woman seeks to set things in order and rebukes disorder often then it could be evidence that he was created to be a helpmeet to an Apostle who does this very thing.

If a woman often exposes sin and defines sin then it could be evidence that she was created to be the helpmeet for a Prophet who does the same.

If a woman loves to teach the bible and has biblical revelation it could be a sign that she is gifted to become the wife of a Bible Teacher.

If a woman loves to work with a group of people to guide them spiritually then it could be a sign that she is to be a wife of a Pastor.

If a woman is constantly praying for people to be saved and winning souls it could be evidence that she is made to be a wife of an Evangelist.

The single Levite woman therefore should be specific in asking for a husband of the Fivefold Ministry and she should ask for a man of specific calling that she can be compatible with. Sometimes a man can have a dual-calling or gift like a Pastor/Evangelist or an Apostle/Teacher or Prophet/Teacher and the man will be known by is fruit. If a Levite woman has a wider range of spiritual interest then they may ask God for a specific dual-calling husband.

In my own life I often have set things in order and rebuked disorder and I love bible teaching so it turned out I was a perfect helpmeet to Kenneth who has a dual-gift of Apostle/Teacher. All of his bible teaching flows along the lines of exposing disorder and putting that disorder back into order again with the systematic teaching of God’s word. I often inspire him with revelation and things I see in the scriptures and I also see disorder the same as he does. I was in fact made specifically for him and his ministry and we fit like a hand in a glove (even though we are opposites in many ways). In areas we are different it is evident that my weakness is Kenneth strength and his weakness is my strength. Together we are one-complete person joined together by God.

1 Timothy 2:12 (NIV)

¹² I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man; she must be silent.

It is not good for Levite women to minister to mixed-gender congregations but should in fact focus their first priority upon being a helpmeet to their own Levite husbands. If they do stand in a teaching ministry it should primarily be for women only. Women are not allowed to teach a man so this disqualifies Levite women from a pulpit ministry to mixed-gender audiences.

1 Corinthians 11:3 (NIV)

³ Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.

All women are created to be a helpmeet to their own husbands and God has placed the husband in charge over the wife according to God’s divine chain-of-command. This therefore clarifies that Levite women are not to stand in a leadership role over men in any form within the marriage or the church.

1 Corinthians 14:34 (HCSB)

³⁴ the women should be silent in the churches, for they are not permitted to speak, but should be submissive, as the law also says.

The fact that God commands that the women remain silent in the church shows that they are not to hold a pulpit ministry over a mixed-gender audience. Therefore, the Levite woman is only free to minister to women only as a part of her ministry for her husband. For example, I carry the apostolic anointing of my husband to put things in order for women but I do not minister to mixed-gender audiences because I am not allowed to speak within the church before a mixed-gender audience unless I am specifically addressing the ladies (even if men happen to be listening also). I’m called to minister to women only just like a Miriam did when she led the women during the time after the Egyptians were drown in the Red Sea. This shows that Miriam (a Levite woman) had a ministry for leadership over other women.

Genesis 3:16 (NIV)

¹⁶ Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you.”

This is part of God’s plan to make the man and the woman as one-person together in marriage and the man is assigned the role of head over the wife. There can only be one head in the marriage and this role is to be fulfilled by the man of the house. However, if the woman refuses to submit to her man as God has commanded then she has effectively deprived him of his leadership role by her refusal to submit to him.

1 Timothy 3:2 (NIV)

² Now the overseer must be above reproach, the husband of but one wife, temperate, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach,

The qualifications for leadership in the church apply to all of the Fivefold Ministry including deacons and this means that all men occupying leadership positions must be above reproach and have their own households in order with their wives submissive and their children obedient.

Hebrews 7:7 (NASB)

⁷ But without any dispute the lesser is blessed by the greater.

The lesser is blessed by the greater because a lessor cannot impart anything to someone who is greater than themselves. This also applies to the marriage relationship because the woman is in a lesser position than her husband because he is the head of the wife just as Christ is the head of the church. The genders must acknowledge God’s divine protocol with the man as the head of the wife or else there will be disorder and confusion in that household. It is disorder for a man not to assume leadership and it is disorder for a wife to refuse to submit to her own husband as Christ has commanded her to do. The man was created first and then the woman was created as a helpmeet to the man indicating that the man is greater according to natural order. The woman is a weaker vessel and this weakness was created in her so that it would be only natural for her to submit to her own husband. When they flow together as one-person in unity then they fulfill God’s plan for marriage.

Matthew 18:16 (NKJV)

¹⁶ that ‘by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.’

There are numerous scriptures that indicate that the man is created by God as the head of the household and the woman is created by God to be his helpmeet. The scripture above speaks of two or three witnesses and this can also be applied to having two or three scriptures (or even more) which all confirm the same thing that God created the men as the heads of the households and the women as their helpmeets.

Judges 21:25 (NLT2)

²⁵ In those days Israel had no king; all the people did whatever seemed right in their own eyes.

The only time that women are forced to take leadership is when the men steadfastly refuse to accept their leadership and the ship is sinking as a result. The women will have to bail water otherwise she will sink together with the passive men. But this is not something that is blessed but only a survival measure until such time that some men stand up and do what is right.

Judges 4:4 (NIV)

⁴ Deborah, a prophetess, the wife of Lappidoth, was leading Israel at that time.

Deborah was used in the time when the passivity of all men was prevalent because during the time of the Judges men were generally self-indulgent and did whatever they thought right in their own sight. The time of the book of Judges was a time of lawlessness and anarchy for this reason because men were not taking their places of leadership. This is when Deborah tried to keep the boat from sinking but the same woman also rejoiced when men rose up as leaders and she willingly supported them. She was not trying to take over male leadership for herself but was only thrust into this position by the passivity of men who did nothing while the nation was sinking into anarchy and lawlessness.

1 Timothy 2:13 (NIV)

¹³ For Adam was formed first, then Eve.

God’s first choice is man for leadership because God created the man first and then created the woman out of his bone and flesh to be a helpmeet to the man. God gave men masculine logic which sees the long-term goal while he endowed the women with being detailed creatures to see the immediate needs of the family. So together a man and woman are “one-person” and are complete with the man providing long-term leadership goals and the woman meeting immediate family needs.

1 Corinthians 12:28-29 (NLT2)

²⁸ Here are some of the parts God has appointed for the church: first are apostles, second are prophets, third are teachers, then those who do miracles, those who have the gift of healing, those who can help others, those who have the gift of leadership, those who speak in unknown languages.

²⁹ Are we all apostles? Are we all prophets? Are we all teachers? Do we all have the power to do miracles?

Top three appointments to the church are the Apostle and Prophets and Teachers. These do the main work and often there are men with dual gifts of both Apostle/Teacher and Prophet/Teacher. They are known by their fruit as the Apostle/Teacher exposes disorder and uses systematic bible teaching to set disorder back in order again. The Prophet/Teacher will expose and define sin and can teach on and define specific sins and call people to repentance. They bring divine order and holiness and fear of the Lord to the churches so that is why they are the top two gifts of importance.

A single Levite woman should have a good understanding of the Fivefold Ministry Gifts so that she can make an “educated” decision about how to claim a specific husband from among the Fivefold Ministry gifts.

See the link “Fivefold Ministry Gifts” for more details.

A single Levite woman should ask herself who is their favorite preacher from the past church heroes and who do they admire the most from the Fivefold Ministry. This may also help them identify the right man that they need to marry because their hearts will flow in that direction.

When a Levite girl is mismatched with a layman, they will forever be lonely in heart because they will have no spiritual fellowship with each other.

There are also some fake laymen ministry intruders who are not called to the Fivefold Ministry but have intruded into the holy office of their own accord. Such men have no anointing and are just kind of dead spiritually and play a religious game and are boring and have no life in what they teach. These are not someone for a single Levite woman to marry because they have no fruit of being a Fivefold minister and it would be equal to marrying a layman even if such a fake preacher is running a dead social club church.

Such a man cannot be turned into a Fivefold Minister any more than a plow horse can be made into a race horse. If they are not born with the gift, they are simply not New Testament Fivefold Levites.

Often Levite women have married laymen for security then tried to drag these laymen into starting a church so that they could have a ministry outlet but this is always a mistake. The man is not to adapt himself to the woman but the woman is to be a helpmeet to her man and serve him not vice-versa.

Ephesians 5:22 (AMP)

²² Wives, be subject (be submissive and adapt yourselves) to your own husbands as [a service] to the Lord.

It is the wife who is to adapt herself to her husband and she is not pull a layman out of his occupation to force him into a pulpit ministry for which he is not called or gifted. Such a laymen trying to preach is like a chicken trying to fly and will not go very far. If they are not called by God then they cannot be pushed into ministry by a Levite wife because she cannot call them to preach. Human self-effort in pushing laymen into the ministry only results in ruination for everyone and it is a great disservice to push a layman into the Fivefold Ministry for which he is not called.

Placing Desires on a List

God has already placed desires in the hearts of singles ladies so they can simply make a list of what they want in a husband and then become “single-minded” in purpose and not waver or change and steadfastly hold out for their answer from God.

After the single lady has made her list for a husband then she can visualize him clearly and then they are ready to pray and ask God specifically. They can make a decision to let God be the one to bring the man they have asked for. They must stay in faith and pray in the spirit and not waver. They should thank God for the answer constantly by faith.

Mark 11:24 (NLT2)

²⁴ I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you’ve received it, it will be yours.

If they pray for anything and believe they have received it then they will have it. Jesus exhorted His disciples to believe that they have already received whatever they request in prayer. Faith accepts it as good as done even though the actual answer is still future.

The single woman should engage in visualizing her man and thank God for him in advance and the more they do this they sooner they will receive him. They have to dream and their faith will come to pass into reality and they will receive the man they have specifically asked God for in prayer.

Matthew 7:11 (NLT2)

11 So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.

Do not be in a hurry but take time to study what I have shared in my story and our teaching carefully first then let the peace of God rule your heart and let your requests be formulated according to your God-given desires in your heart.

Philippians 4:7 (KJV)

⁷ And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

When you have made your prayer of faith then you will have the peace of God which passes all understanding and keeps your heart and mind in peace.

Claiming a Temperament Type

Another consideration to request of God in prayer for a mate is what kind of temperament-type he will have.

See the link “Temperament Types” for more details.

A study of the temperament types will help the believer understand how other people function and will also aid in helping married people to understand their own spouse. In our case Kenneth is a melancholy (sensitive and perfectionist type) while I am a choleric. Our personalities are very different and we clash a lot but at the same time my weaknesses are his strength and his strengths are my weaknesses. I believe different temperament types can be of value to balance out someone because of they were both of the same temperament type they would have all of the same weaknesses and strengths being doubled as a married couple.

How to release the Prayer of Faith

Romans 10:17 (NASB)

¹⁷ So faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ.

Faith comes by hearing the word of God so the bible is the source of all faith. The believer must stand on the scriptures and release their faith to receive the specific answer to their prayers.

Matthew 6:14-15 (NIV)

¹⁴ For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

¹⁵ But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Also, before praying the believer should clean up their heart and have nothing like unforgiveness in their heart because God will not hear someone whose heart harbors sin. God will not forgive their sins if they do not first forgive the sins of others.

Mark 11:24-26 (KJV)

²⁴ Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

²⁵ And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.

²⁶ But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.

Before a single lady utters her prayer of faith for her specific spouse, she should be sure to forgive anyone she might hold animosity toward or unforgiveness and make her heart condition right before God.

1 John 3:21-22 (NKJV)

²¹ Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God.

²² And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight.

This is a perquisite to prayer because she cannot pray the prayer of faith if her heart condemns her for sin. God does not hear those who pray with unrepentant sin in their hearts (including the sin of unforgiveness).

Freezing the Sin Nature

The sin nature really cannot be completely eradicated but it can be somewhat “frozen” by denying it the right to express itself. I was a single woman for a long time so I had a lot of selfishness which had to be exposed and repented of. It was a long process but over time I learned more about how not to yield to the sin nature within.

1 Corinthians 15:31 (NKJV)

³¹ I affirm, by the boasting in you which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily.

This scripture about “I die daily” can also be applied to dying to the self-nature or sin-nature within by refusing to yield to it. When a person feels like getting angry or throwing a fit, they can simply refuse to yield to that and the sin nature will be weakened and lose its hold over them. If they yield to the sin nature it will become a monster and will rule their lives!

Galatians 2:20 (NKJV)

²⁰ I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

This scripture speaks of being crucified with Christ and that crucifixion speaks of death to the sin nature which resides in all humans. We can die daily to the sin nature in making choices to respond in a manner pleasing to God by following are born-again human spirit which desires righteousness rather than yielding to our sin nature.

Fighting the Good Fight of Faith

While I was engaged in making my list for a spouse the devil kept attacking my thoughts that there was no such man in the world! I told the devil that if there is none then God can make one for me really quick! I resisted the devil and kept encouraging myself. This what the fight of faith is all about and I engaged in this battle until I had my specific man manifested in my life.

Salvation is the First Step

Those who are not yet saved can invite the Lord Jesus into their hearts and from this point they can begin their walk with God and their relationship of asking the heavenly Father for specific prayer requests (including asking for a spouse). If anyone reading this is not yet saved, they can go to the link below for more information about salvation.

See the link “New Creation Born of God” for more details.

Chapter 2

The First time ever I saw your Face

I have already shared about my first meeting in February 1996 with Kenneth which transformed my life from being a lonely and miserable single girl into a woman of purpose and destiny. The pop-song “The first time ever I saw your face” really seemed to sum it up for me! It was a time I shall never forget!

As Kenneth was preaching to my fellowship (mostly overseas Filipino workers in Seoul) … I was busy going down my soulmate prayer list for hoping this man is the one and saw that he had some detail of my specific prayer visibly that I had made to God specifically long ago. Kenneth had three sermons planned but he could not keep his eyes off of me while preaching and he decided to cut it short with only one sermon instead and immediately invited me out to dinner afterward.

At the restaurant we became the longest-seated customers in the place as we shared for hours together. We were so amazed that we knew so many of the same people and had the same beliefs and ideas and faith which were held in mutual understanding between us. It was as if we knew each other all of our lives and were made for each other!

I repeat all of this supernatural story of our divine meeting together because I want to emphasize to the single ladies that when they meet the right one there should be a mutual understanding between the two of you as if you know each other all of your lives and have so many things in common. Kenneth had every detail of height and build and occupation and calling and age and same beliefs and there was no doubt this was a special order man and he even proposed to me immediately just as I prayed that he would do!

Single girls must pray for the prayer for the soulmate according to own desires in the heart. Let God be the match maker according to your desires of prayers.

What a sound of music!

Kenneth was supposed to meet another Korean pastor for his next preaching schedule but he was terribly late because the time seemed to slip away over our first date. On the way to the next schedule Kenneth proposed to me in the taxi right away because he told me later that he did not want to lose me to another guy by being passive after he had waited all of his life to meet a girl like me! What a sound of music to my ears! Actually, I did not expect this immediate proposal although that was my soul-mate prayer to the Lord long time ago. My heart was a bit sad because of we only talked about spiritual things about God and missions and ministry over dinner table. My hidden wishes were, “Please show me Kenneth that you were interested in me personally!” What a big surprise!!! I wanted to shout to the whole world about this news. I called my family members (even though they were in bed) and I went crazy and busy giving them the good news that I got the man of my heart that evening. Wow…!

He did not know that this also was an answer to my specific prayer to God for a mate that God would cause him to propose right away! I had been single long enough and I did not want to endure a long courtship but wanted to begin our happy life together, the sooner the better! It did not take even a second for me to immediately accept his proposal and my heart was singing for joy and it was the best moment of my entire life!

My 2^nd date was at the airport coffee shop following morning before his departure back to Philippines. This time I checked quickly, thoroughly some of my prayer requests with him personally. How faithful God answered all of my details of request (except for the character issues). I praise His Holy Name! Ken measured my finger for the purpose of buying me a promise ring. That had been the long desire of my heart to wear my man’s given ring on my finger! Oh! Yes!! That was my happiest day of my life…

No doubt Kenneth was my custom-made man from heaven right there.

When can you marry me? I asked Ken. “May be… 99” his answer sounded hollow to me so I went to the Lord and prayed, “Please cause him to marry me as soon as possible!” and that is what God did!

Dramatic Answers to Prayer can be a “Harbinger” of Storms Ahead

It should be noted however that when God moves in a dramatic manner like this then often this means that there are big storms coming ahead. It is the memory of the supernatural working of God putting us together that held us like an anchor during the troubled times ahead!

A Dear-John Letter

How wonderful to have a man of my dreams in my heart with a promise ring on my finger but then he dropped bomb on me with a Dear John Letter that was the most awful rejection that I ever experienced! How terrible it was to be broken hearted! His letter was waiting for me when I arrived in the morning at work. As I read the shocking news it struck me so hard that feeling of my blood seemed to turning into white color and ran to the powder room and saw in the mirror that my face was as white as a sheet. I just could not believe it was real!

I could not give this kind of humiliating news to no one but my church guys all greeted me with torture on Sunday by saying “How is brother Kenneth…?” What a torture to my ears! From that awful rejection day forward I just wished I was dead and was thinking of leaving Korea and just disappearing.

Romans 10:11 (NLT2)

¹¹ As the Scriptures tell us, “Anyone who trusts in him will never be disgraced.”

I was so shocked and overwhelmed that I just did not turn to the Lord in just a dark time as this!

Romans 10:13 (NIV)

¹³ for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

Remember one thing in life! Jesus said I will never leave you. Almighty God never changes! He is there Immanuel! Whoever calls upon His name will be saved from any kind of trouble you face, anytime, anywhere, turn to Him early as possible for he will benefit us because His name is Hope of Glory!

Hebrews 11:6 (NIV)

⁶ And without faith it is impossible to please God,

But all my faith gone out to the door. Now, I can see the truth. Did He not send Ken to me? How foolish that I stayed in the darkness for months! All I needed to do was just turn to the Lord since it was His will for me to marry him.

Kenneth had told me later why he sent me a Dear John Letter. He heard a preacher (the late Lester Sumrall) who said “we never fought one time in marriage” (it was true statement, due to his godly wife Louise who had prepared herself from a childhood such a way which is very rare case one in the million)! I believe she was the one of greatest among holy women of God but that testimony caused Ken to doubt a lot about our rough relationship because we were fighting already and not even married yet so he thought about how much more will we have trouble after marriage?

There were some factors involved in this why Ken broke up with me. Somethings I mentioned on the overseas call that marriage comes before ministry and he hung up on me when I said that and I knew something went wrong. Yes, my big mouth said such things at the wrong time. Ken’s mind was in trouble about what I said thinking that I might be a hindrance to serving God from his calling or I sounded like I was trying to control him or was like a city girl who did not appear to be suitable for the mission field. These thoughts were unnecessary because in fact I love the quiet life in the country side and city life is not for me. Besides all of this Ken had heard many bad reports from preachers over the years that they regretted that they were married so forth! The fact of the matter is he judged me through his bad experiences with girls in the past on top of those bad experiences of others who added fuel to the fire!

He told me later that he was going against his peace and strong inward witness knowing that I was the girl he was to marry as sure as he knows himself that he is saved without a doubt! But he chose to listen to his natural thoughts regardless of having peace and listened to his head and not his inward witness. It is like if you wearing yellow glasses which causes a person to see through the yellow color! He had mistaken and misjudged me by what I had said and classed me together with those who hurt him in the past. I realize, some things are better not to be mentioned and these things were not sweet to the soul either when it is spoken out of season.

Proverbs 13:12 (NIV)

¹² Hope deferred makes the heart sick…

I gave up the hope of marrying this man. Months went by mourning and sorrow of my heart, God gave me a dream and I woke up with the crystal clear impression telling me and urging me to contact Ken otherwise, we would both be miserable singles for the rest of lives! All that day, my pride resisted and struggled in thought against what I heard from God but the words were lingering, and threatening me! I know God can’t lie for He is not a man. I knew Ken is the one God sent for me. That evening I humbled myself started dialing! The devil gave me vivid picture that Ken would reject my call and would be humiliated and worse off.

Satan’s only weapon is a lying tongue (deceptions) to produce the fearful thoughts by inserting these into the mind. But I remembered what God had told me so I determined to call Kenneth again. I resisted and rebuked the devil and prayed for God to help me. I called Ken even while still feeling insecure because of his “Dear John” letter words were still fresh in my mind.

But Ken seemed very pleased with my phone call which made me puzzled and surprised about his reaction. Anyway, I later found out God used my phone call to heal Kens past hurt from the wicked girls he had known and at the same time it killed my pride. This was killing two birds with one stone because Kenneth was amazed that I called him back. He thought that he would never be able to do what I did and that I had more backbone than he had. He greatly admired me for my courage and also felt loved that I had taken the risk to call him again. This seemed to heal the hurts of his past that he had carried for many years by the rejections he also experienced.

My obedience that brought us back together, but the healing manifestation of my broken heart took many more years.

Marry Her Now!

In Feb, 97’ Ken just stopped over in Seoul for my happy birthday on the way back to Philippines without knowing it was God’s will by sending him to marry me at that time. The following day when I went to see him, Ken said, God told him “marry her now” out of blue when he brought this good news. I was not surprise at all for having my prayer was answered, but calling for God’s grace because I was facing big trouble ahead…(when I had to share some yet unknown circumstances with Ken).

Bank Loan Debt Nearly Sinks the Ship

During my miserable single years, I was tired of waiting on God for His due time to bring my soulmate to me, so I engaged in self-effort hoping to find “Mr. Right” and that is when I borrowed some money to take a trip to the U.S to visit a Camp-Meeting in Tulsa, Oklahoma. As a result of this failed self-effort in trying to find my husband I ended up in great debt. I was afraid to share with Kenneth about this evil truth for fear of losing him.

Back to My Story

My own experience with debt resulted from disobeying the clear impression which I had from the Lord which ordered me to stay where I was at in Korea because God would bring my man to me in due time. God was faithful that He did His part and brought me my man in Korea but because I went against the impression God gave to me then I got into debt which became a great curse to me later.

My first debt was from the trip I made to the USA trying to seek for a husband out of my own self-effort and I added to this debt for several more trips made to see Kenneth in both the Philippines and in the US. I never mentioned to Kenneth about this in detail until recently. As I’m a Choleric temperament and a head liner, and I don’t give details as much as Kenneth does.

Now that I found my man, how was I going to break the bad news about my bank debt to Kenneth?

Woe is me!

I could not keep quiet about the debt and allow him to be shocked when he married me without knowing what he was getting into. Therefore, I pulled all the courage in me broke the debt news to Kenneth. When he heard about it his first reaction was to tell me that he was not going to marry me after all! I understood and I did not blame him because I would have said the same thing myself and in a desperate situation I went to God in prayer (who was my only hope). O Lord! waited so many years to meet this specific man and now I am about to lose him because of incurring debt…Save me, oh Lord!

The next day, I went to see Kenneth with the scriptures that the Lord had given me, and He took the words of the Lord, and he sought the Lord himself about it. God moved to let Kenneth know that I was the one God ordained to be his wife whether I had debt or not and regardless if he gets along well or not! Yes, I was happy to hear this news!

Happily married

March 6, 1997, we were happily married at the U.S. Embassy in Seoul (dressed casual in blue jeans). We were happy to skip the typical wedding ceremony and Kenneth was surprised that I had the same feelings about it as he also did. Actually, wedding ceremonies were boring to me. We ended up having our honeymoon at the Prayer Mountain (even if that was not really suitable for a newly married couple). We were just happy to be with each other and anywhere was “good” as long as we were together!

The bank advised us that the debt had to be paid or we could not leave Korea so Kenneth assumed my debt in order to bring his new bride back with him to the Philippines. We both presumed and expecting God would pay it off soon after but we were badly mistaken about this.

It should be noted however that Kenneth was never in debt as a missionary until marriage, and we could have started a new life together facing the marital storm without the financial pressure on top of the snowballing interest caused by these bank loans… Yuk!

Self-effort and curse of debt

I could see my dear husband suffered although Ken was an innocent party. How awful it was for Kenneth who bore the shame before his own family for being in debt when he married me. He also had to endure the consequences of wages of my sin of debt in our marriage for a long time!

Isaiah 53:6 (KJV)

⁶ All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned everyone to his own way; …

It seems to me, every act of self-effort (endless list of self-exaltation, self-righteousness, self-seeking etc..) which is independent apart from God is sin and reap a curse. Quite often I fell out of grace and began to do things by self-effort and this is how I incurred debt.

John 10:10 (NIV)

¹⁰ The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Satan’s only weapon is a lying tongue and (deception) to produce the fearful thoughts by inserting into the human mind his evil imaginations. The believer is to cast down ever evil imagination of Satan because the devil typically tries to blame his dirty work on God and tries to sow offense in the heart of those who are deceived by his lies.

Satan was represented in the form of a serpent in the Garden and a snake has no hands or feet so the only things he has is the venom of deceit that comes from his mouth. But these lies are enough to destroy those who are deceived by them. Many believers have been deceived by Satan to blame God for their difficulties and this is a way of bringing about their destruction.

2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV)

⁴ (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)

⁵ Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalt itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

It is for this reason that the believer is to cast down every evil imagination and take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. Any thought that is not in agreement with what God has said in his word should be cast down immediately without hesitation.

See the link “Church at Ephesus” for teaching of grace and returning to first love.

The First Wedding Day

God had to cleanse us of evil motives and kill off the sin nature and make us one together for the Master’s use.

Ephesians 5:22-24 (HCSB)

²² Wives, submit to your own husbands as to the Lord,

²³ for the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church. He is the Savior of the body.

²⁴ Now as the church submits to Christ, so wives are to ⌊submit⌋ to their husbands in everything.

The above scripture is a foundational Word to live by for all wives during their life time…!

Kenneth brought above scripture to me on our first day of marriage, and what a prophetic word it was! He let me know that a wife was required by God to submit to her own husband in everything. But typically, most women will respond, “Not in everything!” I said that too, and tried to find some other bible version that might provide a different translation, but other bible translations all say the same thing. A wife can follow a believing husband in “everything” because he is a man of God and will not ask her to do anything that is wicked or ungodly. Therefore, believing women can submit to “everything” without exceptions just as the Bible says.

I realized that I never heard of any teaching in this area before. God has started teaching this area as Ken has seeking the Lord for the marriage counsel.

Ever since then whenever Kenneth turned to the Lord for marriage counsel I have been complying with the words of God. Our marriage began to have order and peace at home and it also was developing my character here a little and there a little so that I was becoming a better wife to Kenneth gradually. As a result, He started loving me more although dying to self was painful process and seemed endless, because it does not happen overnight. I felt like am I a monster or something because in the beginning the dying part was mostly focused upon me. Typically, God has to start with the wife first because she must first submit to her husband before he can assume leadership in the home. Then later God began to focus on cleaning up Kenneth after my own life was largely put in order. It must start with the wife first so that the man can love his wife and assume leadership without her resistance to God’s divine order of placing the man as the head of the household.

1 Timothy 2:13 (NIV)

¹³ For Adam was formed first, then Eve.

Adam was formed first and then Eve was created after Adam as his helpmeet. He is the head and is greater than the wife so she is to submit to her husband first of all then God can afterward begin working on changing the husband. But wife submission is foundational or else the man can never assume leadership of the home as God has intended unless the wife first submit to her husband and allow him to be a leader in the home.

Men Created to be Leaders

1 Corinthians 11:3 (NASB)

³ But I want you to understand that Christ is the head of every man, and the man is the head of a woman, and God is the head of Christ.

God has established a divine chain-of-command with God as the head of Christ and Christ the head of the man and the man the head of the wife and this can be extended to include the parents as head over their own adolescent children.

1 Corinthians 14:33 (NLT2)

³³ For God is not a God of disorder but of peace,

God is a God of order and this includes having the men as heads of their own households. This is done in God’s wisdom so that as the wife submits to the leadership of the man and the man submits to Christ and Christ to God and there will be divine order and peace from top to bottom.

Ephesians 5:22-25 (AMP)

²² Wives, be subject (be submissive and adapt yourselves) to your own husbands as [a service] to the Lord.

²³ For the husband is head of the wife as Christ is the Head of the church, Himself the Savior of [His] body.

²⁴ As the church is subject to Christ, so let wives also be subject in everything to their husbands.

²⁵ Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her,

Colossians 3:18-19 (AMP)

¹⁸ Wives, be subject to your husbands [subordinate and adapt yourselves to them], as is right and fitting and your proper duty in the Lord.

¹⁹ Husbands, love your wives [be affectionate and sympathetic with them] and do not be harsh or bitter or resentful toward them.

1 Peter 3:1-7 (NIV)

¹ Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives,

² when they see the purity and reverence of your lives.

³ Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.

⁴ Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

⁵ For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands,

⁶ like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.

⁷ Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers.

The scriptures above found in Ephesians and Colossians and 1 Peter all speak of the same principle that first the wife is to submit to her husband and secondly the husband is to love his wife. This is done in God’s wisdom because if the wife does not submit to her husband this will deprive him of standing in the role of a leader in the home. A man cannot love a rebellious wife who denies him of his leadership position in the home so therefore there are three witnesses in the scriptures which all confirm the same thing. They all say that “first” the wife is to submit to her husband as God commands and “secondly” the husband is to love his wife. It is only natural for a man to love his wife if she is submissive and has a good spirit about her and is not resisting his authority in the home in rebellious manner.

It is for this reason that the Lord began to deal with me “first” in the area of submission because if Kenneth could not assume leadership in the home, then that would be disorder! I praise my man that he brought me the scriptures on our first day of marriage and these “hit the nail on the head” and showed me the requirements of God for women to submit to their husbands. There must be wife-submission “first” because that is the first step toward divine order in the home.

Dealing with Meddling Parents

The financial pressure was not the only problem with the debt however because it also strained relationships. Ken’s mother Elsie was serving as a Ken’s office secretary in Nebraska and she disclosed our private financial matters to the whole family.

My first visit when I met my in-laws was in late 1997 when Kenneth’s parents came to the Omaha airport to pick us up. I noticed Ken’s father Marvin had a sour facial expression toward me which was showing that I was not welcome. On the way to their farm house the drive took about 45-minutes. I was kind of tired from a long trip and did not pay much attention of Marvin’s bad attitude but as soon as we sat down at his house on the couch then Marvin opened his mouth and spoke to me in straight forward asking why his son paid my debt? This was accusatory in nature and something that was done in rude manner.

What an insult to both of us this bold statement was! I immediately said back to him that it was none of your business that Ken paid my debt or not and besides our marriage is of the Lord. Kenneth was of an adult age so how dare he ask such a foolish question like that?

When he heard my rebuke, he just got up and walked out of house, and left us speechless for a while. Elsie should had been rebuked for spreading our private matters to the whole Popken family members (as we found out later was her usual habit.) I never really gave much thought of this incident up until now.

We had been suffering marital storms with hell-fire frequently breaking out because of our poor character and now this rift with Ken’s parents developed over Marvin’s accusatory manner regarding a subject that was none of his business. It seemed we were going from bad to worse as we endured these ongoing refinement process of character development!

Also, Marvin was trying to push Kenneth to make money as a layman would normally do. Marvin suffered during the great 1930 depression so he was constantly focused on money and making a living since these bad experiences of his childhood with poverty and lack.

When Kenneth would visit home during his infrequent furloughs to the States, Marvin would constantly ask him when he was going to get a job? It was like a broken-record whenever we would stay at his house briefly during our return from the mission field. But this type of thing totally goes against everything God created Kenneth to be as a New Testament Fivefold Minister who is required by God to receive his livelihood from the work of the ministry.

See the link “Levites Commanded to Live of Ministry” for more details.

Asking Kenneth to get a secular job and forsake the ministry is like asking a fish to become a bird and leave the water. Kenneth was born for the ministry and to do anything else would render him like a fish out of water. But it is nearly impossible for a layman like Marvin to understand the calling of God which a Levite like Kenneth was born with. Trying to explain the call to the ministry to a layman is like trying to describe what snow is like to native of the Amazon jungle. They have no ability to understand what you are talking about if they have zero experience in such matters!

Romans 11:29 (KJV)

²⁹ For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.

This scripture speaks of the fact that the gifts and calling of God are without repentance and this also applies to the men born with a call to the Fivefold Ministry. They were born with the call and they have no choice but to obey God and fulfill that call or experience eternal damnation.

Romans 11:29 (NIV)

²⁹ for God’s gifts and his call are irrevocable.

The call to the ministry is also irrevocable so if God gave that calling, he is not going to withdraw or remove that call just because a parent tells his son to quit the ministry and get a secular job. In this case the Levite has to obey God rather than men.

Lester Sumrall is an example of a boy preacher who left home as a minor (at age 17) against the wishes of his father who bellowed at him that he better still be home when he returned from work. But Lester had to obey God rather than humans because God is in a higher authority than even parents. Normally a boy should obey his parents in everything but with this one exception if the parent commands him to go against what God has commanded him to do.

In the case of Kenneth however he was over age 35 and still his father was persecuting him constantly about going out to get a secular job. Kenneth did work for a drilling company during our required seven-year waiting period in the US for processing our marriage visa and gaining his wife’s US citizenship. But working that job was only a temporary thing until they obtained my US citizenship and could again return to the mission field. It was not something he could do for the rest of his life and make a career out of it and retire with a pension like a layman typically does.

When a man is born as a Levite, he has no other choice but to fulfill his destiny and obey God and serve God. The last time Ken was at home in 2012 (at age fifty) Marvin again asked him when he was going to get a job. Finally, Kenneth rebuked Marvin (who was ignorant about spiritual things) and said to him that if he gets a secular job again, he would go to hell! Past secular jobs which Ken held were only temporary things while waiting for the door of ministry to open before he left for the mission field in 1988 or while waiting in the US for the processing of his wife’s citizenship. It was not something he could return to in haphazard manner because he was not a layman and not permitted to provide for himself by labor outside of the work of the ministry.

John 7:5-6 (NIV)

⁵ For even his own brothers did not believe in him.

⁶ Therefore Jesus told them, “The right time for me has not yet come; for you any time is right.

Jesus was the most perfect man that ever lived but even his own brothers did not believe in him. They were too familiar with Jesus and supposed he was no better than they were. If the family of Jesus did not believe in him then how much more will the family members of ordinary humans called to be Levites will also not believe in them?

The same was true of Kenneth whose own father and family members (familiar with his weakness) did not honor the gift evident within him. An Apostle or a Prophet cannot just shut off the operation of their gift when they are in the presence of relatives. When they try to silence him then it will only lead to his separation from his own family members.

See the link “Sword of Division” for more details.

I wish now I could have told Marvin about all of the supernatural events around how God had put Kenneth and I together in marriage. Instead, I rebuked him right away for his rude comment so I was unable to share more about what God had done after that.

What was happening during all of these marital storms and problems was that Kenneth was going to God for direction and he started receiving his Apostle’s teaching concerning not only biblical marriage principles but also the wisdom of God concerning spiritual and natural matters. I am going to release some of these pearls of wisdom to other women who are also struggling in their marriage adjustments. Those who have a hungry heart and are thirsty for spiritual things to learn the truth will greatly enjoy these biblical principles for marriage.

In our last visit in 2012, Kenneth spoke to Marvin frankly and said that he had discovered that he was trying to gain Marvin’s acceptance but he knew he would never be accepted by Marvin’s standards who only judges a man by how much money he earns. This seemed to soften the heart of Marvin and he even invited us out for dinner twice at that time we were home. He even treated me really gentle as Kenneth’s wife and was nice to me by opening the car door for me and even helped me with my chair at the restaurant. Those kind actions really warmed my heart and I felt accepted by him for the first time. I grew to appreciate that Marvin was a hard-working farmer and honest and sincere and had a dry sense of humor which I heard from Kenneth how hilarious the things Marvin had said.

One occasion Marvin was poking fun at those who would use the name of the Lord in vain and say that the Lord told them to do this or that thing as a way to justify their own plans so that no one could resist them. These plans however were proven to be only of human-origin when they failed miserably and they suffered financial loss. So, Marvin with his dry humor would respond to someone who said the Lord told me to do this or that thing, and say, “You better not listen to him or you will lose all of your money!” Marvin’s statement was not really blasphemous or telling people not to listen to God but rather dry wit to poke fun at those who claim they are hearing God’s voice when in fact they are inventing their own way to go as a stray sheep and who suffer shipwreck as a result of their own stupidity and all the while falsely claiming “The Lord told me so!”

Marvin passed away at age 79 on Oct 24, 2013, but we were able to call him long-distance before he passed and we were able to express our love and appreciation for him and also felt his love for us in return. We thank God for the restoration of relationships even if we had some trouble when we were newly married due to Marvin’s misunderstanding of how God put us together as husband and wife and how Kenneth was called into the Fivefold ministry from his mother’s womb.

Kenneth has grown a lot with his past experiences and he realizes now that he should have stood up for his wife and rebuked his meddling parents and told them if they ever wanted to see them again then they better treat his wife with respect. But he was taken by surprise and was caught totally unaware about how to deal with such a situation since it had never occurred to him this would ever happen. Ken has complied some instructions for other young men so they will be prepared to handle any similar situation so they will know in advance what they are supposed to do.

See the link “Rules of Engagement” for more details.

A newly married for a year off

Deuteronomy 24:5 (NIV)

⁵ If a man has recently married, he must not be sent to war or have any other duty laid on him. For one year he is to be free to stay at home and bring happiness to the wife he has married.

This scripture above speaks of the spiritual principle which emphasizes the importance of marriage adjustment for a newly married couple. They were given a year off just so they could spend time together and get to know one another as a married couple. It is amazing that this was a command given by God because God knows it takes time for a newlywed couple to become one-flesh or one-person together in marriage. This seems very sweet to me that God shows concern for the marriage adjustment time for the newlywed couple.

But Kenneth and I were both single for a long time before marriage and were set in our ways and had a lot of character development and selfishness that had to be dealt with. Our marriage adjustment actually took us over six-years instead of just one (probably an indication of how bad off we were in character). But I saw signs we were becoming one-person when Kenneth would say that his ears were open listening for the front door to open for me to come back from grocery shopping indicating he was constantly thinking about me and missed me even when we were apart for a short time.

I believe this experience of becoming one together with spiritual bonding started taking place on the level when I started submitting to Ken daily and his love really started to grow for me from that point forward. I discovered that women pour cold water on the love of a man by their own independence and self-will and resisting their husband’s leadership decisions in the home. There is nothing like godly “submission” to a man for causing his love for his godly wife to flourish!

1 Peter 3:5-6 (NKJV)

⁵ For in this manner, in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves, being submissive to their own husbands,

⁶ as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord, whose daughters you are if you do good and are not afraid with any terror.

Sarah is a woman of faith and a good example for all godly women to follow and she called her husband Abraham her “lord” because she understood God’s divine chain-of-command that God placed the man as head over his wife. When I started submitting to my husband and even called him my “lord” it was at this time that his love for me really blossomed and our marriage relationship deepened. Women should not be afraid of submission because they will find freedom in submission simply by obeying what God has commanded them to do.

So, the wife can make the sound of music at home through her own submission to her husband! This martial music does not come by accident but I had been busy complying with Ken’s teaching about the wife’s role in marriage and I suffered many harsh rebukes from the Lord for my former self-will and rebellion and independence in the beginning of our marriage. These marriage storms refer to the process of making Ken and I into one-flesh or “one-person” united together in marriage.

Only I can understand Ken because I have become a soulmate for him. This means that Ken has become one in emotions and thoughts and purpose and we have strong love for each other. This process would be a life time process but it did not improve until I fulfilled my role as a wife to first submit to my husband and then in response Kenneth began to love me.

Marital Storm Counsel

When we arrived as newlyweds in the Philippines, we had severe martial storms. I had become set in my ways as a single for many years and it was not natural for me to submit. So, this caused conflict between us and provoked Kenneth into a rage repeatedly. Kenneth was so exasperated that he decided he would like to leave me just so he could have some peace! When he went to the Lord and asked for God’s permission to leave me then he got a sound rebuke instead.

See the link “Attempt to Leave Helen” for more details.

This rebuke (as linked above) was given just before Christmas of 1999. It was from this time forward that Ken began to keep a prayer journal where he has recorded dreams and interpretations of dreams and directions which he has received from the Lord until this present time.

After this big rebuke from God, we both sobered up and determine to stay in marriage. From this time forward Ken has started seeking the Lord for marriage counsel whenever we faced trouble between us. This is where the biblical principles and wisdom of life come from which are contained in words that Ken has recorded from God up until now with a great stock of related files. I could recognize and know from above that they are bitter/sweet but they also thrilled my soul because I was thirsty for the truth myself. But honestly the hard part is the “dying” to self-sin nature required when complying these biblical truths and principles in life.

Over the years: I have received multiple death threats when I tried to escape the hot-chair because my self-nature wants to escape from dying and so was resisting with ongoing struggles. I even left the house with my suitcase although I tried packing 3-times but in the middle of packing I was checking my spirit inside and such fear came upon me that I was terrified so I unpacked and remained. One time, in Philippines, I was furious at Ken and while in the middle of my packing Ken came in and saw it and said, “Just let me know when you done, I will take you to the airport” but that was not what I wanted to hear! Oh, what a man I was married to! He is never a compromiser and he knew, how to put me in the right place! I honor him for that and I had to overcome each test. I am glad that I listened to inward witness and that I stayed in the marriage and obeyed.

Even I can be disqualified if I was to become arrogant! One time, God gave me the dream of being replaced as Ken’s wife by another woman just to warn me that I should not get too confident just because I am married to an Apostle who is called to serve the Lord. In the dream the other woman said, “I do not know what happened to his first wife but I am glad she dropped out because now I have the man instead of her! That dream was enough to provoke me to stop the thoughts of quitting my marriage! God knows how to deal with self-pity and a bad attitude giving me a dream that turned out to be a rebuke for me when I did not appreciate the role God had given to me and He threatened to take it away.

Exodus 4:24-26 (NLT2)

²⁴ On the way to Egypt, at a place where Moses and his family had stopped for the night, the LORD confronted him and was about to kill him.

²⁵ But Moses’ wife, Zipporah, took a flint knife and circumcised her son. She touched his feet with the foreskin and said, “Now you are a bridegroom of blood to me.”

²⁶ (When she said “a bridegroom of blood,” she was referring to the circumcision.) After that, the LORD left him alone.

Zipporah fought and resisted her husband Moses in everything and she despised Moses and despised his God so God replaced her later. His new wife was blessed to be married to such a man of God.

Psalm 105:15 (NIV)

¹⁵ “Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm.”

1 Chronicles 16:22 (NIV)

²² “Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm.”

The scripture passages above both speak of not touching God’s anointed ones and this can also have application to a woman married to a Levite man. God can protect his man in jealous manner and bring judgment upon a rebellious wife. As I said, Zipporah was replaced with a new wife later and rejected forever for never having been submissive to Moses. When Moses’ father in-law Jethro brought with Zipporah and two sons came to the camp it seems that Zipporah was sent away after that because Moses ended up having a different wife.

Exodus 18:5-6 (NIV)

⁵ Jethro, Moses’ father-in-law, together with Moses’ sons and wife, came to him in the desert, where he was camped near the mountain of God.

⁶ Jethro had sent word to him, “I, your father-in-law Jethro, am coming to you with your wife and her two sons.”

Moses rejected Zipporah and clearly that marriage was over and he sent her back with her father Jethro. Only his two sons remained with Moses. It was good thing to get rid of her who was only a curse to Moses. Later Moses married a Cushite woman which seems to have been a woman from the mixed multitude that came from Egypt.

Exodus 12:38 (NASB)

³⁸ A mixed multitude also went up with them, along with flocks and herds, a very large number of livestock.

A mixed multitude were various foreigners who resided in Egypt at that time which had seen all those judgments and disasters come upon Pharaoh and the Egypt as a nation. These people thought that if they stood among the Jews then they would be safe from the plagues so they followed the Jews during the Exodus. But these people caused much trouble to the community and harbored the bad slavery mentality that provoked them to complain and murmur.

Numbers 11:4 (NLT2)

⁴ Then the foreign rabble who were traveling with the Israelites began to crave the good things of Egypt. And the people of Israel also began to complain. “Oh, for some meat!” they exclaimed.

These people were a bad influence upon the community and are like the types of professed (fake) Christians who want to avoid of fires of hell by being involved church activities (yet they are without salvation) so they could be called tares.

God recorded these things in the Bible to illustrate that if a wife disdains and disrespects her man and does not submit to him and honor him, then God can replace her with another wife.

Male Leadership

Man was always God’s first choice for leadership and if God cannot find a man (due to male passivity) then only on a few such occasions would women serve as God’s second choice such as (Deborah, Huldah and Anna)

Judges 4:4 (NIV)

⁴ Deborah, a prophetess, the wife of Lappidoth, was leading Israel at that time.

2 Kings 22:14 (NIV)

¹⁴ Hilkiah the priest, Ahikam, Acbor, Shaphan and Asaiah went to speak to the prophetess Huldah, who was the wife of Shallum son of Tikvah,

Luke 2:36-38 (NIV)

³⁶ There was also a prophetess, Anna, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher. She was very old; she had lived with her husband seven years after her marriage,

³⁷ and then was a widow until she was eighty-four. She never left the temple but worshiped night and day, fasting and praying.

Anna was the prophetess and an Intercessor (praying for the coming of Messiah) during her generation but she was still under OT era, because the NT started from the preaching of John the Baptist (according to what Jesus mentioned in the scripture below.

Luke 16:16 (NIV)

¹⁶ “The Law and the Prophets were proclaimed until John. Since that time, the good news of the kingdom of God is being preached, and everyone is forcing his way into it.

Right choices must be made daily and that is how a believer can walkout their life in a manner that is pleasing to God. Life is about series of choices and what a person chooses will determine their eternal rewards or their damnation in the life to come.

The only answer to this was to humble myself and quickly repent and keep peace with Ken, (this would be the same as keeping peace with God as well) so when I lie down and my sleep will be sweet (the key to stay young too) …!

*The ultimate, best thing I can do is sing to the Lord a new song in the midst of dying of self by continual sacrifices of praise to God (submission to own husband with good attitude as to the Lord for the life time) …!

Acts 16:22-26 (NIV)

²² The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas, and the magistrates ordered them to be stripped and beaten.

²³ After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully.

²⁴ Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.

²⁵ About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them.

²⁶ Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody’s chains came loose.

Paul and Silas were beaten and bleeding but they experienced having heaven came down in the midst of a dark time in the prison when they chose to praise the Lord.

Hebrews 13:15-16 (NASB)

¹⁵ ….. let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that give thanks to His name.

¹⁶ ….. for with such sacrifices God is pleased.

We can also practice this way in our home life by serving our men such a way that the blessings of God would surely be upon us whose hearts are making melody to Him continually regardless of circumstances. This would be the most precious worship we can offer to the Lord as well…!!

I Received Your Worship

One time in South Bend, IN, I heard the Lord saying to me “I received your worship” and I broke tears and was sobbing and Ken came to me asking if he had hurt my feelings or something? All I could do was point upward toward heaven and say, “It is him!”

What had happened was that Kenneth was in the kitchen trying to make something to eat and I came in and said, “Let me serve you darling!” Then afterward when I returned to my room the glory of God came down upon me and God spoke saying, “I received your worship!” This in fact meant that when I served my husband out of a willing and cheerful heart then that was accepted as an act of worship to the Lord! It was something revolutionary in my life to discover that when I serve my man, I am serving the Lord who appointed my husband as spiritual authority over me.

How shameful it is that I had forgot all about this for such a long time. I should have lived like that daily but instead became offended over my selfish expectations to be served myself in childish manner!

I forgot this incident up until now: as I have been busy having self-pity party all these years like Prophet Elijah in the mountain of Horeb after fled from wicked Jezebel’s threat.

1 Kings 19:13-14 (NIV)

¹³ When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave. Then a voice said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

¹⁴ He replied, “I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too.”

Elijah was so full of self-pity that he forgot all about God and his purpose and destiny as a prophet of God. I confess that I had become the same way when I drifted into being moved by outward circumstances and feeling sorry for myself and wanting to be served rather than serving.

I have now come to the end of myself which is a good thing and caused me to depend upon God alone. I am able to worship the Lord with a broken hearted for just who he is…! Now, I don’t want be a circumstantial girl anymore!

Matthew 7:13-14 (NKJV)

¹³ “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it.

¹⁴ Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

Matthew 20:16 (NKJV)

¹⁶ So the last will be first, and the first last. For many are called, but few chosen.”

Narrow is the pathway to life and few are chosen who are willing suffer the crucifixion of their self-nature and follow the hard road. When a believer comes to the place that they are faced with making a decision and they are not so sure about the will of God, then they should always choose the difficult route rather than the popular one and they will most of time get it right that way. This is because this earthly life is a testing ground for us to choose who we are going to serve (ether ourselves or Christ)?

Hebrews 4:15 (NKJV)

¹⁵ For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.

It would not be a test if there were no temptations. Jesus was tested in every way as is common to man but he was without sin!

Genesis 2:16-17 (NIV)

¹⁶ And the LORD God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden;

¹⁷ but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die.”

The beginning of human history the first man Adam was given the “freedom test” (v. 16-17) that if he would do what is right, he would live but if he disobeyed, he would die. This is a simple and clear statement throughout the whole Bible and says that humans will be tested to see if they will go for or against God. Will they use their God-given human freewill to sin or to obey God?

The earth is testing ground with opportunities or temptations to sin but we have to overcome them all and do what is right in God’s sight.

Luke 9:23 (NIV)

²³ …. “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.

I noticed that whenever I am really angry at Ken that my rebellion of my sin nature rises up and resists that which is good and I am tempted to quit him and follow my sin nature rather than God. So, there is a constant struggle within me so I am tested by the fire of circumstances. No test is easy and the sin nature is always looking for an easy way out without having to change. The mind is the battleground and the believer has to overcome in his mind first. If they yield to satanic thoughts, they will fail the test.

Hebrews 9:27 (NIV)

²⁷ Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment,

Numerous times I had wished that there was no heaven and no hell because I did not want to overcome by being tested. Often I murmured that I wished I was not born as a human being but complaining like that changes nothing. All humans must be tested by circumstances and they must pass their tests in order to qualify for heaven. The believer has been given great spiritual resources so they have no excuse for not overcoming by the grace of God.

Psalm 139:7-9 (NIV)

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,

The Psalm of David says that God is everywhere and is omnipresent so there is nowhere for a human to escape. There is no real choice but to overcome because falling back and quitting will result in eternal damnation. Only those who overcome will enter the kingdom of God.

Luke 9:24 (NIV)

²⁴ For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.

In above word “his life” is referring to the sin nature or the Adamic nature which all humans have inherited from Adam and Eve. This sin nature goes against will of the Lord causes resistance for the believer who is seeking to live by God’s word alone until this salvation’s race is over.

See the link “Salvation’s Race” for more details.

Heart issues

Kenneth and I arrived in Indiana in 2002. It was during this time that we applied for my U.S. Citizenship. We had to wait 7-years for the processing and remained in the States for the next seven-years until my citizenship was issued.

It was during this time that Kenneth started a television program called “Divine Order” that aired for 13-weeks on LeSea channel 46 in South Bend Indiana.

We had both high hopes for paying the debt off since Ken was obeying God for TV preaching at the time so we expected with some prosperity would come out of this but our hopes were dashed to the ground. God saw our heart condition concerning this area of pride (because Kenneth inwardly desired to have success in order to show his father Marvin that he has some worth). But this attitude was displeasing to the Lord and the dearth of finances served to humble us and break this area of pride. We should have focused on fulfilling God’s will only and not add our own hopes of fanciful baggage on top of what God has called us to do. So, we had our bad heart attitude exposed and we learned that God was sovereign and his ways are perfect. Now days we are always looking to heart issues knowing these are the real deciding factors to anything that happens in our lives.

Psalm 18:30 (NKJV)

³⁰ As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the LORD is proven;

The lesson to be learned here is that God does not want anyone to draw their self-worth from people but to draw this from the Lord Jesus only.

Proverbs 14:1 (NASB)

¹ The wise woman builds her house, But the foolish tears it down with her own hands.

This scripture speaks of a woman building her house but this is not referring to a natural home which is made of mortar and brick but rather it speaks of the man as her covering and spiritual head. The two types of women mentioned here are those who are constructive and build up their men with positive words and those who are destructive and tear down their own husbands by their negative words.

Job 2:9 (NLT2)

⁹ His wife said to him, “Are you still trying to maintain your integrity? Curse God and die.”

When I displayed a bad attitude and spoke negative words toward my husband then the Lord said that I was like Job’s wife who told her husband to curse God and die rather than encouraging him in the Lord. A man depends upon his wife to build him up and not tear him down. This good attitude could be seen in how Abigail encouraged and strengthened David when he was yet a fugitive.

1 Samuel 25:27-31 (NIV)

²⁷ And let this gift, which your servant has brought to my master, be given to the men who follow you.

²⁸ Please forgive your servant’s offense, for the LORD will certainly make a lasting dynasty for my master, because he fights the LORD’s battles. Let no wrongdoing be found in you as long as you live.

²⁹ Even though someone is pursuing you to take your life, the life of my master will be bound securely in the bundle of the living by the LORD your God. But the lives of your enemies he will hurl away as from the pocket of a sling.

³⁰ When the LORD has done for my master every good thing he promised concerning him and has appointed him leader over Israel,

³¹ my master will not have on his conscience the staggering burden of needless bloodshed or of having avenged himself. And when the LORD has brought my master success, remember your servant.”

Abigail spoke of David’s future destiny when he would one day be king. This is an amazing act of faith to say such a thing to a man who was at the time living as a fugitive in the open fields! Abigail knew how to build up a man and speak of his future greatness. It is for this reason that David immediately proposed marriage to Abigail as soon as he heard she had later become a widow. He would not live without her and this is the difference between a woman who builds up her man and a woman who tears her own man down like the wife of Job.

It is a foolish woman who tears down her own husband because when he fails then she will go down with him. But if she edifies and encourages him and empowers him to success then she wills share equally in all of the good things God brings to them as a married couple.

I spoke negative at the time when we faced great debt and no economic deliverance manifested as we had hoped. Instead, I was supposed to increase my faith in God and not be moved by circumstances. The wife is to join and become one together with her husband but if he goes down then they will go down together as a married couple. When the man is blessed then they will be blessed and increased together so it is a choice of the wife if she will be a wise woman like Abigail and build up her husband or if she will be a foolish woman and tear her own man down like the wife of Job did.

Job 2:9-10 (NIV)

⁹ His wife said to him, “Are you still holding on to your integrity? Curse God and die!”

¹⁰ He replied, “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.

Job’s afflictions and his agony were unspeakable! This is when Job most needed comfort from his own wife so that she could be a helpmeet for lifting him up instead of tearing him down with her foolish mouth. Her bitterness was revealed when she lost her security of wealth and her children and she was ready to curse God because she was only circumstantial in her relationship with God.

Proverbs 14:1 (NASB)

¹ The wise woman builds her house, But the foolish tears it down with her own hands.

The above word “her house” actually speaks of her own husband who is a spiritual covering or roof for his wife. But Job’s wife tore down her husband with her foolish mouth. So, any married woman can also tear down her own man with her words or she can do the opposite and build him up.

Proverbs 18:21 (NIV)

²¹ The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

The tongue has the power of death and life and the words that a believer speaks will produce either death or life for them. The same is also true for a woman who speaks death to her own husband by tearing him down with negative words. If she will be a positive influence, she can build him up with the power of her words and energize him to success.

Believing married women might as well choose to be a wise and build up their husbands because this will result in their own benefit as well. The taming of the tongue is something that requires a continual renewing of the mind to think the thoughts of God. God does not dwell with the negative and so the believer must learn to speak only positive faith-filled words for this reason.

Philippians 4:13 (NIV)

¹³ I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

The believer can do everything by the grace of Jesus including taking dominion over their thoughts and words to think and speak only in line with the Word of God. The believing wife can make a right choice to be a helpmeet to her man and to serve him as unto the Lord because when she serves the Lord, she is also serving Jesus.

Job 42:10-17 (NIV)

¹⁰ the LORD made him prosperous again and gave him twice as much as he had before.

¹³ And he also had seven sons and three daughters.

¹⁵ Nowhere in all the land were there found women as beautiful as Job’s daughters, and their father granted them an inheritance along with their brothers.

¹⁶ After this, Job lived a hundred and forty years; he saw his children and their children to the fourth generation.

¹⁷ And so he died, old and full of years.

Job passed his test and did not accuse God falsely and, in the end, God restored his losses double and richly rewarded him. I wonder about this same foolish wife if this was the one who bore Job ten more children after Job’s restoration or did God replace this woman with a new wife? If the same woman bore another ten children, then that would be supernatural. I suppose it is possible that her youth had been renewed like young eagles for the sake of Job. But since she was one who was ready to curse God, I could imagine her being replaced with a more suitable wife who had a better attitude than this woman did. It will be interesting to go to heaven and find out if Job had a new wife or multiple wives after his fortunes were reversed.

The Bible Knowledge Commentary: Following his terrible ordeal, Job lived 140 years. If he was about 70 when the calamities struck, he lived to be about 210. According to Jewish tradition, his latter years (140) were exactly twice the number of his former ones (70).

Ezekiel 14:14 (NIV)

¹⁴ even if these three men–Noah, Daniel and Job–were in it, they could save only themselves by their righteousness, declares the Sovereign LORD.

Job was one of the most highly favored men in the Bible and was specifically mentioned with Noah and Daniel who were famous for walking with God. Job passed his test and never accused God as being unjust and was rewarded by the Lord as was also famous on the earth.

If a believer did not have an opportunity to exercise their human freewill then they would not really be free. Therefore, a believer has a choice to be either foolish or wise when faced with every circumstance. A wife of a believer can support their husband or tear him down with their foolish mouth. The faithful believing wife can choose to do things right in the sight of God and fulfill her God-given role as a helpmeet.

A believing woman can even remain silent without encouraging her man but that is also as bad as tearing him down because he needs her words of encouragement. Typically, the man only has his wife for encouragement and no one else on this earth. There is no neutral ground in the Kingdom of God and the Valley of Decision speaks of going right or left or negative or positive by either choosing to follow God or to forsake him.

See the link “Valley of Decision” for more details.

Life is all about choices and whatever a person chooses to do will determine their eternal rewards or their damnation in the life to come. God constantly forces people to make a clear choice for or against him. They longer they persist in rebellion the more difficult God will make these choices forcing them to pay a big price to come back to him.

Genesis 2:15-17 (NIV)

¹⁵ The LORD God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it.

¹⁶ And the LORD God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden;

¹⁷ but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die.”

The tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil was about human free choice and providing people with the option to either choose to obey God or disobey God. This is what makes humans different than all other living species because God created humans with a freewill to choose.

Deuteronomy 30:19 (NASB)

¹⁹ “I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants,

God places life and death before all humanity and then asks them to use their human freewill to choose life. God does not send anyone to hell but rather humans send themselves to hell by their own free choice to choose against God’s commands.

Genesis 3:1-7 (NIV)

¹ Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”

² The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,

³ but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.'”

⁴ “You will not surely die,” the serpent said to the woman.

⁵ “For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

⁶ When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it.

⁷ Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.

The scriptures above speak of the historical fall of the woman who was deceived to eat the forbidden fruit. In the Garden of Eden, Adam and Eve were tested if they would choose for or against God. God placed the tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil in the midst of the garden but it could be called a testing tree because it was a test to see of the humans would obey God or not. If they did not eat of it, they would live and if they did eat of it, they would die. It was as simple as black and white!

Eve had incomplete knowledge of the forbidden testing tree and said that if they touched it, they would die. But this part was not true so when she touched it and did not die then she falsely presumed that she could also eat it and not die. The devil tempted Eve along the lines of her feminine equality for all saying that it was not right that God was on a higher level than herself and if she would only eat the forbidden fruit she would become like God (or equal with God). That was the same perverse desire that Satan himself had when he was expelled from heaven for trying to be like God. Satan therefore caused the woman to eat of the fruit for the same reason. Eve was deceived to eat the forbidden fruit and this brought a curse upon the whole earth as a result.

How ignorant Eve was in wanting to be like God when the truth is that Adam and Eve were already made in the image of God and possessed dominion over all of the works of God’s creation. But they lost it all and sold their dominion to Satan by obeying him and made Satan as the god of this world’s system.

Genesis 1:26-28 (NIV)

²⁶ Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

²⁷ So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

²⁸ God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

Humans were created in the image of God and in God’s likeness and God gave them dominion and authority to rule and subdue the earth. They had dominion over all of God’s work and were made as kings to rule.

John 10:34-35 (KJV)

³⁴ Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?

³⁵ If he called them gods, unto whom the word of God came, and the scripture cannot be broken;

Jesus even said that humans are created as “gods” and this scripture cannot be broken. It was foolish to sell out to the devil trying to be like God when they were already made in God’s image in the first place!

Luke 3:23-38 (KJV)

³⁸ Which was the son of Enos, which was the son of Seth, which was the son of Adam, which was the son of God.

The genealogy of Christ the Messiah shows that Adam was the son of God made in God’s image. This places humans on a higher level than all other living creatures because people are made in the likeness and image of God. Adam lost his sonship by the fall and the last Adam, Jesus was born as a son of man and granted restoration of sonship for us through resurrection from death.

John 8:44 (NIV)

⁴⁴ You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.

Jesus said Satan is a liar and murderer and there is no truth in him. So do not listen to his lying words but only cast them down in the name of Jesus! I was the passivity of Adam which did not teach Eve properly regarding the testing tree.

Adam should have cast Satan out of the Garden, but passive, Adam was right there with Eve on the spot but he did not do or say anything, which is same as the mutual consent of Adam. Eve proceeded on her own initiative and took the fruit and ate first and then gave some to Adam.

1 Timothy 2:14 (NLT2)

¹⁴ And it was not Adam who was deceived by Satan. The woman was deceived, and sin was the result.

1 Peter 3:7 (NKJV)

⁷ Husbands, likewise, dwell with them with understanding, giving honor to the wife, as to the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life, that your prayers may not be hindered.

Women are prone to deception because they are weaker vessels and they need their husband’s leadership for this reason. They are also physically weaker than men and need the man as both a provider and a protector. Men have to dwell with wife in marriage with understanding in this area of the weakness of the wife and be alert and guard them from deception from the enemy! Women are to submit to their own husbands with for this reason and submit to male leadership in marriage to qualify for the blessings of God;

Man is just flesh and blood, with weaknesses shortcomings like us too and they are imperfect. The men need our support too. Therefore, the wife should not look for a perfect man to submit to because there is none perfect except Jesus.

Luke 4:5-7 (HCSB)

⁵ So he took Him up and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment of time.

⁶ The Devil said to Him, “I will give You their splendor and all this authority, because it has been given over to me, and I can give it to anyone I want.

⁷ If You, then, will worship me, all will be Yours.”

Adam committed high treason in the garden of Eden and handed his dominion over the Satan who became the God of his world in Adam’s place.

Matthew 28:18-20 (NIV)

¹⁸ Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.

¹⁹ Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

²⁰ and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Jesus came to his eleven Apostles of the Lamb and gave his commission to them (which pertains to the Fivefold Ministry of today). They were given authority and all heaven and earth to use the Name of Jesus.

Revelation 1:18 (NIV)

¹⁸ I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.

The resurrected Christ affirmed that He alone has the keys of death and Hades that is, authority over the place of the dead. Glory be to God…!!

1 Corinthians 2:8 (KJV)

⁸ Which none of the princes of this world knew: for had they known it, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory.

If Satan had known the plan of God, then he would not have crucified Jesus. This was the hidden mystery of God before the foundation of the world.

1 Corinthians 12:28 (NIV)

²⁸ And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues.

Ephesians 4:11 (NIV)

¹¹ It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers,

These Fivefold servants are born with certain spiritual gifts and have the anointing of God to fulfill their specific offices. No layman can do the work of the ministry of the Fivefold because they are not called by God. Without the anointing they can accomplish nothing but only bring a curse to the people. The time is near that the fake ministry intruders will be removed from the pulpit. The wages of sin is death and judgment will come when they refuse to stop their intrusion where they do not belong.

Romans 5:12 (NLT2)

¹² When Adam sinned, sin entered the world. Adam’s sin brought death, so death spread to everyone, for everyone sinned.

Adamic sin nature which passed down to all mankind and even those who are born again still have to overcome sin-selfish-nature within and deny this sin nature by refusing to allow it to express itself by saying “No” to it. This sinful nature will not be eradicated totally but can be frozen by denying it the right to express itself by saying no to it. Only then will the sin nature become weaker and weaker. Whenever the believer yields to it then it will become revived and gets stronger again.

Hebrews 4:15 (NIV)

¹⁵ For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are–yet was without sin.

Romans 5:18 (NLT2)

¹⁸ Yes, Adam’s one sin brings condemnation for everyone, but Christ’s one act of righteousness brings a right relationship with God and new life for everyone.

The last Adam, Jesus came as a son of man, who overcame all the temptations such as are common to man and became a sin offering for even death on the cross to redeem us to receive the eternal life of God. Salvation is available to whoever calls upon the name of Jesus Christ. the freewill of mankind comes into play here (from the Garden of Eden) and the believer should remember this earthly life is series of (right) choices to make so they can be accepted into heaven hereafter.

Proverbs 4:23 (NIV)

²³ Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Heart issue is everything to God; humbled and broken and contrite of spirit with purity which only draws self-worth from God alone and carefully determines to seek after that which pleases the Lord.

Hebrews 12:4-8 (NIV)

⁴ In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.

⁵ And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: “My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

⁶ because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.”

⁷ Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?

The above verse speaks of resisting sin. This is the process that the believer must go through as they die to the sin nature that is wicked. Naturally the believer can feel faint at times when they are struggling against sin because it can seem like an endless battle. Often the believer does not see how much they have improved so they can feel helpless and hopeless during this struggle against the sin nature. Self-pity is another trap that is evident when the believer is suffering hardship (dying of self) in marriage. But if they do not dwell there they can progress and go forward into the refining process.

1 Peter 3:5-6 (NIV)

⁵ For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands,

⁶ like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.

When the believing woman endures the discipline of the Lord (with submission to their own husband) and does this as unto the Lord then then they will be treated as His daughters like Sarah did and that’s our heartfelt worship to the Lord…!!

Psalm 2:11 (NIV)

¹¹ Serve the LORD with fear and rejoice with trembling.

Natural fathers discipline their children for their own benefit and God does the same thing with His children as well. God is like a loving father who will not allow his children to remain undisciplined and without a rod of correction. A child without correction will mess up his life and end up in prison, and become hell bound. But correction will produce the fruit of righteousness and peace in the lives of those who are refined by it. This is divine correction and it is for raising godly offspring.

Jeremiah 17:5-10 (NIV)

⁵ This is what the LORD says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD.

⁹ The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?

¹⁰ “I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve.”

God only judges us based on obedience. The human motivations of the heart are everything to God…! God only cares about having our human heart motives and character purified.

We were being trained not to look to humans for anything including affirmation or acceptance or money or contacts or promotion or anything that is to come from God alone. There is no faster way to stop the blessing of God than to look to humans with longing expectation rather than toward God who provides all good things to those who trust in him during their life time. I must say that believers need to strip off all self-provision and depend on God like a little child. Believers should be striving to obtain this lofty goal.

TV Ministry “Divine Order”

Kenneth and I arrived in Indiana South Bend in 2002. It was during this time that we applied for my U.S. Citizenship. We had to wait seven-years for the processing and remained in the States for the next seven-years until my citizenship issued.

It was during this time that Kenneth started a television program called “Divine Order” that aired for 13-weeks on LeSea channel 46 in South Bend Indiana.

We had both high hopes for paying debt off since Ken was obeying God for TV preaching at the time so we expected with some prosperity would come. But our hopes were dashed to the ground and our pride got hurt. God saw that our heart condition was bad before all of this and he had to kill our pride right there. We should have focused on complete obedience and fulfilling the Lord’s will rather than attaching our hopes and fanciful baggage on top of what God called us to do.

Kenneth preached on TV with releasing all the messages in his heart at that time. Kenneth did his part what the Lord told him to do. God said, Ken passed the faith test right there by obeying the Lord when he moved to South Bend and released the message what the Lord asked him to give.

When we moved our nest to South Band, we stayed at the hotel for 10-days waiting for God’s provision. The faith test was severe for having lack of money to pay even the hotel bill. Breakfast was included with the room but we could not enjoy each breakfast because of anxiety concerning bills to pay.

One day, Ken was driving and passing by the cemetery which is located in middle of downtown. When I saw the spot where one of graves had been opened for the burial that’s when I wished just crawl in and wanted to be buried rather than go through this faith test. This thought hit me hard with pity and I started sobbing and crying as I was sitting next Ken in the car. Kenneth told me later when my crying reached his ears that a hot-flash of fear came upon him and he started doubting whether or not he heard God right about being there? We had burned the bridge behind us for the commitment going forward obeying Jesus. The dark thoughts and evil foreboding for a while we had to fight it off spiritually. We could have enjoyed each other right there as if no worry in the world but we were stressed instead. The test is never easy and the provision eventually came in after all.

We then rented a 3-bedroom house with 2-car garage. Ken turned the living room into a studio for producing his own preaching tapes for his television program. We enjoyed living there about 2 years in Mishawaka, IN. Kenneth had a great time personally beside ministry. I failed the test again; God provided our need but I continued to keep living in the future in my mind so much that I was not able to enjoy the present journey. Our debt had not paid it off either only the debt had been increased on top of first debt. Our expectation was down for without seeing the needed income after the TV ministry was over. We both were wounded, I made open complaint and usual murmur again to Kenneth. He rebuked me hard; saying “Don’t you have fear of God?” He is the only hope we have, so stop complaining!” He was right about my bad attitude toward God. Actually, I was disqualified for being debt-free because of that. I should have exerted myself so that I could have passed the test.

The knowledge of biblical teaching kept coming to Kenneth from above from the end of 99’ ever since…! That was my only joy that kept me growing and rejoicing spiritually in the midst of trials of marital storm which is a type of character refinement. But the ugly lingering debt was aggravating me the most because I was thirsty for the promotion from God. Ken’s teaching messages were always awesome and I appreciate his gift so much! I praise him for it…! Whenever I receive his teaching, I become like a little girl who is enjoying the swing by her father pushing her behind helping her going higher and higher, shouting…hallelujah! How delicious they have been to me…!!

Expedite Truck Driving

After TV ministry was done and we came to the end of our cash then that is when we started driving expedite truck as team drivers in Indiana.

Getting the Commercial Driving License for me was given by divine favor of the inspector whom seemed determine to give me CDL. They thought it amazing that this little Asian little girl was driving a big truck and they thought I was a cute girl. During this time of truck driving, we traveled all over the US and Canada and as far south as the Texas/Mexican border. The situation of having both of us working hard day and night but the hope of paying the debt off was a slim chance with that small income. This seemed to work in our favor to gain the needed approval for our bankruptcy. It was a bitter sweet thing to be debt free after having suffered so much!

The hardship on the road for 9-months and practically living on the truck together was a painful experience. I was down and out with bad attitude toward Ken and God. Constant complaints and murmuring in my heart. I acted as if God owed us to pay off my debt. Yes, I failed the test as a result and “the bankruptcy” God used humbled us rather than having out debt wiped out in a fanciful way. But God chose bankruptcy to humble us down for the purpose of killing the pride in our hearts! Honestly, I felt hurt and offended and ashamed and humiliated by how these events transpired.

We knew that God was using this as a refinement process within us. Most often offenses coming for the lack of character and the need for discipline. The truth is God knows what’s best for us.

Isaiah 55:9 (NIV)

⁹ “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Sovereign God! His ways are perfect, His way was not necessarily my way… Just submit and remain thankful…!

Refinement and Character

Malachi 3:3 (NIV)

³ He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver. Then the LORD will have men who will bring offerings in righteousness,

This scripture above specifically refers to refining and purifying the Levites as a refiner will purify gold or silver by smelting. The Levite priests under the Old Testament era are direct counterparts of the New Testament Fivefold Ministry Levites. These men are called into the ministry and therefore they must be purified by God to remove evil motives and other impurities within them. This process is similar to smelting gold or silver by heating it to the melting point then skimming off the impurities that float to the surface of the liquefied metal. But instead of burning up the Levites in a literal furnace God uses circumstances to test them and expose their hearts. This causes the impurities to be exposed to them so that they can see them and repent of them.

The Levites and layman, all man should draw self-worth only from Christ alone. A Levite has his heart purified by circumstances when his sin is exposed so he could repent and forsake it (like a refiner skimming off the impurities that float to the top of liquefied metal). God caused both of us to go down to the bottom so that we no longer are concerned about our reputation after suffering our wilderness time.

Psalm 51:10 (NIV)

¹⁰ Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

This process of the fiery furnace of God and time of smelting and refining was not just for Kenneth but also for me because I am one-person together with him and God treats us as one and see us as one person. So, we both being refined at the same time. In fact, we are still continuing with this process! The reason for the delay of his promotion and why it is not yet manifested is because of negligence and being halfhearted and not responding to his rebukes (warning) and teachings of faith walk on the narrow path as Levite requirements of character. Now we are facing life or death situation for grace period come to an end by being grown weary spiritually along the way…!

The truth is in the midst of this wilderness time but somehow, we lost our zeal for the Lord with self-pity and being pouty and having a lack of finances besides we are still on the self which is killing our sin nature.

Hebrews 11:1 (KJV)

¹ Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Faith is always now, never in the future but I have to admit that I have lived in the future and God was calling for a heart adjustment in these areas.

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